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Embarking on an adventure.

By Memorial weekend I will be embarking on a new adventure. I will be transitioning from a working mom to a stay-at-home mom. 

This is something I have wanted to do for a long time, but circumstances in our lives have prevented it in the past. As they say, life changes. I am very blessed to be in a position where I can stay home with my kids, while they still like having me around!

At the same time I feel guilty. The biggest reason why we are in this position is because of the generous heart of a friend. A friend who died and left an inheritance to us. I would give it all back to have our friend here.

Out of a tragedy births an opportunity. But still there is guilt.

It’s funny that we plan for our death with a life insurance policy. We plan so that when we die the ones we love will be taken care of, or at the very least, live life a little easier. That is the way we want it to be. But when we’re the one who is the beneficiary of that inheritance it takes on a whole other feeling. It’s called guilt. Guilt for enjoying the fruits of their labor. Even though that is how they planned it. That is what they want for you. {sigh}

Four weeks ago I watched another friend & co-worker suffer a fatal stroke right in front of me. If there is one thing I have learned from that day is that…

LIFE IS SHORT.

No one knows how long we have on this earth. Life is too short to live it being miserable. Plan for the future but live for the now.

To be honest, my heart hasn’t been in the job I have been doing for at least two years now. I was over-worked, over-stressed, over-guilted, over-whelmed, over-tired, and just plain over it all. But it’s hard to leave when you love the people you work with. It would have been so much easier if my boss was a big fat jerk. So, I tried to focus on happiness away from work. I even read books on how to be happy. {snort} No luck.

In the middle of an anxiety attack at four o’clock in the morning I had my “a-ha” moment. Why am I having this anxiety attack? What do I really want? The realization that I could actually ask for what I really wanted made it clear as day. I know the Lord was with me that night; and He gave me strength to say it clearly without holding back. A-ha.  I would have woke up hubby except he was already awake. We came to the decision together. Happiness is more important. I don’t want to die miserable. And there is one thing I absolutely know: today could be your last day.

It’s time to close the book on this chapter of my life and start a new…

I hope I don’t hate being a stay at home mom. I hope I don’t run away from my kids. Or they run away from me…

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forget resolutions…instead focus on ONE LITTLE WORD

I am not a fan of New Year’s resolutions. All too often we make a resolution of kicking our caffeine habit…losing weight…eating less junk food…or whatever. We do alright at first. Maybe even last a few months but by March we fall back into our old habits again. I like the idea instead of picking one little word for the year and allowing that to be my focus.

Resolutions are too vague. I’ve read that one-third of us who make a “resolution” for the new year dump it within 2 weeks and 50% of the rest say “forget about it” within 2 months. Besides, you can start a diet any day of the week, or any time of the year. For 3 years now I have chosen “one word” rather than make a resolution.

The idea behind the one little word concept is to give yourself something to focus on throughout the year…”A single word can be a powerful thing. It can be the ripple in the pond that changes everything. It can sharp and biting or rich and soft and slow.”

This concept is totally from Ali Edwards. I have found this works much better for me than resolutions.

In 2009 my one word was “be”, as in “just be in the moment.” I struggled with being in the moment at first. It had to be a conscious decision and I still remind myself of it today. It’s not a trait that comes naturally to me.

In 2010 my one word was “faith”. I think I did pretty well with that this year. I renewed my faith and continued reading the Bible. I still have many more Books to read but “it’s the journey, not the destination” or “it’s a long road, but the reward is great.” However you want to look at it, I will still be working on faith throughout my life.

For 2011 my one word is “nourish”. I originally chose “health” as my one word. I had a bit of a health scare this past month and that word is definitely on my mind right now as I go for more follow-up exams at the doctor office. Low Thyroid and  “Disordered Prolifertive Endometrium” (or I like to say: a dysfunctional uterus). Both are something that must be dealt with but are manageable.

“Health” became too vague of a word. For me, it’s more than that, it’s being more mindful of what we, as a family, are putting into our bodies, minds and souls. Yes, I am dragging my family into this too. Some of them are kicking and screaming. So, I thought a lot about it and came up with “nourish” as my word. It encompasses my whole feeling of what I want this upcoming year to be. For my mind. For my body. For my soul.

I have been reading more about “whole eating” or natural eating. A blog I really like is 100 Days of Real Food. The challenge is to eat only “real” food. No prepackaged meals. No junk food. No soft drinks. No fast food or take out, unless you know what is in it, which let’s be honest…how can you really know? Fast food restaurants bill their food as “healthy” when it has more fat and calories than their cheeseburger meal. Tough. Anyway, I am not interested in being extreme about eating, I just want to be more mindful. I don’t want to be a dictator about food, especially with my girls. I want to make smarter choices for each meal. And I want my children (and hubby) to grow up to be more mindful of food. Eat to live, ya know. Another part of the goal is to start practicing yoga again. It’s good for the body, as well as the mind. And of course, continue to feed our spiritual souls.

So, what’s your “one little word” for 2011? What do you want to accomplish or focus on in the coming year? I challenge you to create something, anything that will help you focus on your word in the coming year. Maybe I should post my word on the fridge…

Flourishes on the above “nourish” sign from http://www.designsbyanita.blogspot.com

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i am thinking…

Things I love: My family, my friends, my dog
Things I wish I had: Inner-peace, a bigger kitchen, more time, more patience
My favorite place(s) on earth: Home, the ice rink, any bookstore
Things that gross me out: Sitting across from someone who is eating with their mouth open. It’s not see-food, people!
Things I am really good at: Design, scrapbooking. I used to really good at baking too…can you lose your baking mojo?
Books that have stayed with me but I don’t fully understand: Possessing the Secrets of Joy by Alice Walker
Things that anger me: People who think the rules don’t apply to them. Glenn has seen this first-hand the last few weeks. He is picking Alex up after school and seeing exactly what I rant about every week…parents not following the rules in the school parking lot. Yes, the rules are for you too. The rules are there to keep our kids safe.
The best food on earth: Guacamole at Hacienda Colorado. Chips and guac…that’s all I need. Okay, maybe a pomegranate margarita too.
Three things I hope for: 1) my daughters stop fighting and love each other as best friends. 2) my husband stops and listens to me…really listens. 3) that next year is a better one financially.
Things I am thinking about right now: My word for 2011. Instead of a resolution, it’s a word to focus on for the new year. I am thinking “health”. (More details about that later.)

 

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tell the whole story this season

Before I was a scrapbooker I was a journaler (is that even a word?). To me scrapbooking is more about the story behind the photographs than the photographs themselves. What was going on in that moment that made me pick up the camera? What is the meaning behind the photo? Sure, I have my share of “snapshots” in my scrapbooks. The pictures I have taken of the girls riding their bikes or playing in the sand box…they’re cute photos of the kids, but there’s no deep meaning behind them. It’s the other photos and journaling that fill my scrapbooks that are the most treasured. The ones that tell a story of who I am and who my family is today. It’s the spiritual significance or lessons-learned stories that hold meaning to me.

This season, I challenge you to tell the whole story.

Each holiday offers special photo opportunities you don’t want to miss. Of course, opening presents on Christmas Day or the family gathering on Thanksgiving are important life events. But, this year try to capture the meaning of the holiday season. Think about what you cherish most about the holidays and capture these images to preserve for future generations. Here are just a few ideas to get you thinking as the holiday season fast approaches:

Autumn: Fall is hands-down my favorite season. The crisp air, the falling leaves, the pumpkin patch, the color orange, I can dig out my boots from the closet again, sweaters, Aspen hunting. Think about what you love (or hate) about autumn. Why do you feel the way you do? What childhood memories does fall remind you of? Pick up your camera and capture the sights of fall. Make a photo collage or journal your thoughts for future generations.

Thanksgiving: Before your family digs into the Thanksgiving feast, capture your relatives gathered in the kitchen, Uncle Gene stealing a taste of stuffing or Grandpa taking a nap on the sofa after dinner. Ask each person to write down what they are most thankful for this season and document it on a scrapbook page. Ask Grandma what her favorite story or memory from childhood is. Journal stories of your family for the great-grand kids. What favorite dishes has your family always prepared? What memorable stories get told every year? Scrapbook (or journal) them on a page complete with the recipe, photos and why they are a family tradition.

Hanukkah: It’s the Festival of Lights, so don’t overwhelm your photos with a flash. Try turning off your camera’s flash and use a tripod to steady your camera to capture the glow of Hanukkah candles or your little ones standing around the menorah. What tradition does your family share during this special time? Capture all the excitement and meaning on a scrapbook page or journal. And more importantly, what does this special time of year mean to you?

Christmas: Holiday lights make for a great photo opportunity. Again, try turning off your camera’s flash and using a tripod to steady your camera to capture the twinkling effect of Christmas tree lights. Also try shooting outdoor lights at twilight instead of at dark. You’ll get an ambient light effect from the sky to help capture the details of the colorful lights. Do you have special ornaments that have been passed down through generations or do you buy new ornaments every year? Document these treasured heirlooms on a scrapbook page.

Spiritual: The holidays aren’t all about gifts and food. It’s also about spiritual traditions. Do you take time out of the hustle and bustle of holiday shopping and parties to attend church, pray, meditate, or take a peaceful walk to clear your mind? These, too, are worthy of a page in your scrapbook/journal.

New Year’s Eve:
The excitement of a new year…and new resolutions. What are your resolutions? Scrap/journal them and next year look back to see which ones you kept and which ones you’ll try again.

Finally, don’t forget to zoom in on the little details that make your celebrations special, such as food, decorations, toys, leaves or the glow of candles.

Get your creative juices flowing as a journalist and think beyond your children opening presents on Christmas morning. Think about your life, your story and what you want future generations to know about you. Who knows, you just might learn a little something about you and your family.

Challenge yourself to tell the whole story this holiday season.

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inspirational quote

I heard this said once:

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